Posted in Life happenings, Random Facts, Uncategorized

5 Things About Yours Truly

1. I’m scared of the dark and people on stilts. I can’t explain the stilts thing, and I don’t even think there’s a name for it…but the dark thing is because of watching scary movies. I watched a particularly scary one that I can’t remember the name of, but the tagline was Bad Things Happen in the Dark, and I never forgot that.


2. I love the smell of garages, basements, and gasoline. 

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3. I am a Clairsentient, Claircognizant Empath, which puts me in the category of having “paranormal abilities”. (blog to follow)


4. I absolutely believe in Mermaids, ghosts, UFO’s, other dimensions and possibly even big foot. Just because you haven’t personally seen it, doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. Just because it seems impossible doesn’t actually mean that it is.


5. When I was younger I assigned genders to numbers and letters. There is actually a name for this: Ordinal-linguistic personification (OLP, or personification for short) is a form of synesthesia in which ordered sequences, such as numbers, days, months and letters are associated with personalities and/or genders. I don’t actively do this anymore,but I can recollect my patterns from back when I did do it. I thought it was normal. “Doesn’t everyone think 2 is a boy?” I used to think.

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Thanks so much for reading some randomness about me. Here’s a random fact about an adorable animal as a prize for finishing the post! 

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Posted in Life happenings, Mental health, Uncategorized

The Good, The Bad, and the Annoying

Today was an interesting day to say the least, I went to bed around 2:30 in the morning and woke up around 10, so getting some rest was good.
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I felt sort of groggy in the morning, lazy almost, even after coffee and before my morning meds (sometimes my anxiety meds make me a little out of it). But I went about my day, and went to the pool. Only stayed for an hour, since my attention span is so damn short these days.
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I did get some nice color though. Then I decided to run an errand or two, which was both a bad idea and annoying to say the least. It’s Friday, and that means tourists…and a parking lot of traffic on rt.1 south bound. Oy.


(actual Delaware traffic on rt.1)

Luckily the places I had to go were close to my house and I know a lot of back roads, but even in the stores people were either rude or annoying. So basically I wanted to punch everyone in the throat.


I understand that you may be in a hurry, or whatever, but this is Lower slower Delaware. We run on beach time. And if you come down here and you don’t like that…fine, but don’t be a dickbag to the rest of us just because you can’t unclench.

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Then I slowly realized that my rapidly changing mood, and less euphoric feeling meant that I was probably coming down from the hypomania.

It could happen over a span of hours, days, or even weeks, but the hypomania hangover is horrible.


At this point however, I can’t stress about it. I’m going to be vigilant, and vocal with my psychiatrist/doctor, and I know eventually I’ll have my meds right, and I can live a little more peacefully. So here’s to hope. 

Thanks for reading! And here’s a picture of some adorable kittens with some sage advice…

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Posted in Uncategorized, Weather

Calming Chaos

There’s a wicked thunderstorm happening right now, and I couldn’t be happier about it.


I think storms are amazing! The pounding rain on the roof, and the whistle of the wind. Even The lightning…so dangerous, yet so beautiful. And the thunder is almost cathartic; loud and intrusive, yet also a reminder that sometimes even the sky needs to blow off some steam.


I hope you have a good rest of the night! Thanks for reading. And here’s a sleeping puppy in case thunderstorms make you nervous. ❤

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Posted in Uncategorized, Weather

Heat Miser Called, He’d Like His Weather Back

…Seriously, 97 degrees right now in my little beach town, but the weather channel is telling me it feels like 108. 1. 0. 8. 

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Now I know that there are plenty of other places in the U.S. and around the world that are much hotter. I am also aware that it is in fact summer.

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But when I step outside, and the heat bitch slaps me like Batman is doing to Robin in that meme up there, it’s too fucking hotttt. 

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I’ll admit, before I lived at the beach I used to loathe summer, I HATE sweating. But once I moved down here, I started loving it, I live less than 3 miles from 2 different beaches, and I have a pool in my development. I also tan really well, so I take full advantage of both…but on days like today (which was a planned pool day) no-to-the-motherfucking-thanks.

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In fact, I honestly don’t think I’d stay outside for any extended period of time. Not even if the world’s second largest ocean was in front of me. 

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At least with the severe hotness comes the chance for thunderstorms. I love rain and I especially love thunderstorms! We might get some tonight!

So if you are also in a ridiculously hot region, I wish you all the coolness in the world.

And here’s a picture of a baby polar bear (my favorite animal!) enjoying the snow, as a thanks for reading!




Posted in Mental health, Uncategorized


  1.  (of a person or animal) unable to rest or relax as a result of anxiety or boredom”the audience grew restless and inattentive”
Synonyms: uneasy, ill at ease, restivefidgety, on edge, tense, worked up, nervousagitatedanxious, keyed up, antsy.
 And not just regular restless either…but restless af. I feel like I’m being pulled in all different directions, except I’m the one pushing myself toward it all, and I have no clue which way to go.
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As an example…here’s my internal monologue for the last 10 minutes before I decided to write this blog:
 I should watch a movie, watch This is 40. You’ve seen it 7 times but you love it.
(I watched it for literally 4 mins.)
 Maybe I should write in one of the 14 unused notebooks I have laying around…OoOoOo..Maybe I’ll start a quote notebook…
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(I already have 2 quote notebooks started and never finished somewhere; also I may have a stationary addiction.)
 Speaking of notebooks, you need to do your Spanish lesson for the day, and you should take notes…
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(Keep in mind that 3 days ago I tried to study Spanish and Italian at the same time, word of advice…don’t try to learn two similar languages at the same time.)
Nope, you should definitely listen to music on YouTube, you have soooo many playlists on there.
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(Then I went up to my bookmarks bar to click on YouTube and saw my blog bookmark and decided to instead write a blog about how I can’t make a decision to save my life rn and also how I feel like I want to make every decision ever.)
There you have it…all of that in  a span of honestly probably less than 10 minutes. Oh hypo-mania, you son of a bitch.
P.S. I slept last night for about 9 hours, and it was glorious. If I could only do the same thing tonight. Cross your fingers for me.
Thanks for reading my whole post! Here’s a kitten in a bow tie as a thank you.
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